Carson's life

Just wanted anyone who hasn't gotten a chance to see this, to see a little video of my sweet little boy. I tried to figure out how to put it on the side permanently, but am only a beginner. I can't watch this video without bawling my eyes out. Sure miss this little guy tonight.
Dear Carson: I hope you are happy little guy and having a good day. I think about you all the time and miss holding you so much.  Love, Mommy

An A+ Boss

So call me corny, but I also gave a Carson Lion to my A+ boss Christin. Sorry for the selfie shot, but what can I say, I was trying to snap all these pictures fast without me losing my cool. Christin is also onto "greener" pastures meaning she is back to being a regular speech therapist and just like the rest of us, unsure of how "steady" the new job will be. Hopefully I will still see her and she will be around the building still.

I was so impressed with the way she handled being a rehab manager which is a mighty tough job I will say. When all this buy out business was happening, the first thing she was worried about was the patients and others who would be affected by this. She also has kept her ears open for all her employees and I am still counting on her becoming a "boss" somewhere else and I will follow! There just aren't enough good, kind and understanding bosses out there and we need more of them. She's a great speech therapist too which is hard to find. She's even given me some two year old communication tips which I would be happy to share for anyone who is interested. So I hope her Carson lion helps her find the dream job she is looking for!
Joel and I joke around about our supervisors and bosses and we give them grades. Most managers are a C. But Christin always got an A+! Hence the title of this entry! :-)

The First Few Lions

Ok. So I got an awesome job a few months ago. I was so excited about the schedule and it was a beautiful building with really nice people. The kind of jobs everyone says doesn't exist right? Of course there were problems, but everyone's got problems. Anyways, there was a merger/selling of the facility and they decided to close down the Skilled Nursing Facility which is part of a much larger Assisted Living Facility. They will be turning the SNF to all Assisted Living. Which means.... there will not be as much therapy and rehabilitation being done there as there was in the past. So I get to stay on with a new company but I will not get to see my awesome coworkers everyday, etc. It just won't be the same in layman's terms. So I gave the ones who had to get new jobs a Carson Lion for courage. And I tried to write nice notes about how much they had touched my life. I was so grumpy and sad the last few weeks and I was trying to figure out why. I have realized that it was grief. Anytime an event or something happens to me that I cannot control (for example: the changing of my job) all the feelings that I have been dealing with come back in full force. I just feel as though none of my actions or choices really make a difference and I feel so vulnerable. So of course, I was irritable and grouchy at work. And these ladies put up with my negativity and listened to me be cranky. They were great sports. And now they have a Carson lion for a little courage as they move onto their next adventure! Which I am sure will be amazing!

Ok, first of all, don't be judging me for my non-formatted, non-blogger webpage here. This is a judgment free zone right? Afterall, it is technically my blog. I'm allowed to post not "the cutest stuff ever" here. Anyways, This is Alaina who is a physical therapy assistant where I work. And yes, that is my super lame cheesy smile. But I laugh everytime I see this picture. We nick named Alaina "amazing Alaina" because she always seemed to have an answer for everything. She is a super motivator and I will always remember her saying loudly to a patient, "The road to recovery starts right here, right NOW! Now stand up!!" ha ha. I am using that tagline from now on. She is going to have a baby this year too! Hooray! So I am wishing her luck in her new job. I am sure she will be "amazing"! And she will have a Carson lion with her for as long as she needs it.
Next, another PTA got a Carson Lion. Dina is getting a severance package and will be on her way to a new adventure. She also had a bit of a hit and run with her car the other day. The Carson Lion is for the little things too like having the courage to get out there driving again when you know there are crazy drivers on the road. Dina is an amazing PTA and will do so well in her career. She is amazing working with patients and she has definitely taught me a thing or two.
I will add another posting when I get some more pictures. I think I'm going to attempt some better pictures next time. ha ha.
Love, Candice

First Day of New Blog

I have never been a blogger. But with Carson's passing, I decided I wanted to do something AMAZING! So I found this idea in a book I have been reading about little babies who are born with diseases, or premature and they are given a "Ryan's Lion" for courage. Named after a little boy who was born with this. I decided that I would like Carson to be a form of courage. And I am going to begin to give away Carson's Lion to those people who need courage. Stay tuned for the updates. This is in memory of you little buddy...